I'm pissed He pretended like he was okay with everything when he wasn't and went behind our backs Saying it wasn't my fault for being me but that I couldn't appreciate him I was talking about getting married
I'm sorry, B... Sometimes I wish I hadn't shown up here. It clearly caused way more problems than it fixed. But that's not true... You did appreciate him. He knew who and what you were attracted to before he got together with you, right? It's not like you make it a secret. ... I wish I knew what to say besides I'm sorry, B. What can I do to help?
I can't answer that, B. Do you think that was really the problem? Because you couldn't sleep with him as a woman? It's not your fault though. He's the one who made the choice to cheat and not talk to you about it if it was such a problem.
[But no, he's still going to feel guilty and hurt and... a lot of other feelings he's trying to keep pressed down. Billy doesn't need to deal with them right now and he's good at pretending to be okay. He can do this.]
Be right there B.
[He puts away his device and heads out as soon as possible. He doesn't want Billy teleporting ether, not if he's that bad off. From the air, it's easy enough to spot Billy eventually anyway and touch down beside him.]
( his face does look pretty gross: tear stains down his cheek, eyes red and puffy. billy's--made himself on an old wooden bench, at least. but he gets up as soon as teddy lands close by, moves out both arms to wrap them around him.
( teddy's arms have always felt safe, this isn't any different. he tilts his head in, and billy tilts his, too. nuzzles in close, takes a slow, shuddering breath. )
I'm--sorry, too. I know this isn't easy for you either and finding out like that wasn't great. I just--can't believe Loki, it's been almost a year, Teddy. And it. . honestly, it took me forever to trust him at first, after everything. Now I don't know if he was just lying the whole time or--
He's the god of lies, Teddy. Who knows what he's been lying about. ( it's grumbled low, but. billy pulls back a little, shoves his face into teddy's shirt to smear off dried tears. )
I don't think he'd have fought so hard for you, if he didn't care about you. I just-- can't believe he was sleeping around behind your back. [He's angry that Billy's hurt... and he's angry that he's hurt as well. He'd thought they'd all been trying to make this work. Cheating and lying about problems doesn't make anything work though...
He lets out a sigh, bringing up a hand to brush through Billy's hair.]
You'd think that after everything we've gone through, dealing with this wouldn't be so. . hard. ( but it is. and it's less about what loki did and more--why he did it. the way he went about it. if there had been a little more honesty, billy wouldn't be even close to as upset as he is. this is what he gets though, isn't it? trusting the god of chaos, mischief, lies--and everything else.
a step back, and he's raising palms to shove against his eyes, taking a deep breath. )
Yeah... I'm sorry, B. I wish I could make it better for you. [But he can't. He can't say he's surprised Loki lied either -- not when he's the god of them... he'd just hoped Billy wouldn't be hurt in the process.
He moves forward at the question to pick Billy up, hold him close as he shifts his form.]
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With who?
Or-- wait, it doesn't matter. What the hell was he thinking?
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Didn't even think to try and talk to us first
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Can you come here? I'm in our room.
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My face is gross
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Just talk to me if you really don't want to come and see me?
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He pretended like he was okay with everything when he wasn't and went behind our backs
Saying it wasn't my fault for being me but that I couldn't appreciate him
I was talking about getting married
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Sometimes I wish I hadn't shown up here. It clearly caused way more problems than it fixed.
But that's not true... You did appreciate him. He knew who and what you were attracted to before he got together with you, right? It's not like you make it a secret.
... I wish I knew what to say besides I'm sorry, B. What can I do to help?
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Because I'm gay
Obviously that was never a secret so like
Why date me at all if it's a problem
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Do you think that was really the problem? Because you couldn't sleep with him as a woman?
It's not your fault though. He's the one who made the choice to cheat and not talk to you about it if it was such a problem.
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But I know it's not my fault
I want to go home
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We can do whatever you want, B. I promise. But I just want to make sure you're thinking clearly first. We still have to go grab Peter too, right?
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Loki never wanted to go anyway
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And I don't know. That's something to ask Peter, right? He might not want to go, B.
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It's Loki's fault
No one forced him to sleep around, he did it on his own
Can you come get me? I'm north of the perimeter a little off from the usual guard station
I don't want to try teleporting right now
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[But no, he's still going to feel guilty and hurt and... a lot of other feelings he's trying to keep pressed down. Billy doesn't need to deal with them right now and he's good at pretending to be okay. He can do this.]
Be right there B.
[He puts away his device and heads out as soon as possible. He doesn't want Billy teleporting ether, not if he's that bad off. From the air, it's easy enough to spot Billy eventually anyway and touch down beside him.]
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holds on tight. )
Thanks.
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There's nothing to thank me for, B.
[He tips his head in, pressing against Billy's affectionately.]
Let's get you home, okay? We can get you into bed, we can talk or do whatever you want, okay?
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I'm--sorry, too. I know this isn't easy for you either and finding out like that wasn't great. I just--can't believe Loki, it's been almost a year, Teddy. And it. . honestly, it took me forever to trust him at first, after everything. Now I don't know if he was just lying the whole time or--
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[He lets out a sigh and tightens his arms a bit before he starts to smooth his hand over Billy's back, trying to comfort in whatever ways he can.]
I don't think he was lying-- not about you at least.
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Are we walking?
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He lets out a sigh, bringing up a hand to brush through Billy's hair.]
We can walk or I can fly you back.
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a step back, and he's raising palms to shove against his eyes, taking a deep breath. )
Can we fly?
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He moves forward at the question to pick Billy up, hold him close as he shifts his form.]
Of course we can. Come on.
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