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I'm pissed
He pretended like he was okay with everything when he wasn't and went behind our backs
Saying it wasn't my fault for being me but that I couldn't appreciate him
I was talking about getting married

I'm sorry, B... Sometimes I wish I hadn't shown up here. It clearly caused way more problems than it fixed. But that's not true... You did appreciate him. He knew who and what you were attracted to before he got together with you, right? It's not like you make it a secret. ... I wish I knew what to say besides I'm sorry, B. What can I do to help?

Punch him in the teeth

You know I'd go right now and do that, right? And more.

He cheated with other guys
Because I'm gay
Obviously that was never a secret so like
Why date me at all if it's a problem

I can't answer that, B. Do you think that was really the problem? Because you couldn't sleep with him as a woman? It's not your fault though. He's the one who made the choice to cheat and not talk to you about it if it was such a problem.

He said it was because they appreciated his other forms. I can read between the lines
But I know it's not my fault

I want to go home

Are you sure it's not just because I showed up and wrecked things? We can do whatever you want, B. I promise. But I just want to make sure you're thinking clearly first. We still have to go grab Peter too, right?

Can we just grab Peter and take him home with us?
Loki never wanted to go anyway

You seem like you're avoiding my question, so I'm going to assume it's at least partially a yes. And I don't know. That's something to ask Peter, right? He might not want to go, B.

It's not your fault Teddy
It's Loki's fault
No one forced him to sleep around, he did it on his own

Can you come get me? I'm north of the perimeter a little off from the usual guard station
I don't want to try teleporting right now

I guess so.

[But no, he's still going to feel guilty and hurt and... a lot of other feelings he's trying to keep pressed down. Billy doesn't need to deal with them right now and he's good at pretending to be okay. He can do this.]

Be right there B.

[He puts away his device and heads out as soon as possible. He doesn't want Billy teleporting ether, not if he's that bad off. From the air, it's easy enough to spot Billy eventually anyway and touch down beside him.]

( his face does look pretty gross: tear stains down his cheek, eyes red and puffy. billy's--made himself on an old wooden bench, at least. but he gets up as soon as teddy lands close by, moves out both arms to wrap them around him.

holds on tight. )

Thanks.

[He wraps his arms around Billy when he hugs him like that, holding on tight.]

There's nothing to thank me for, B.

[He tips his head in, pressing against Billy's affectionately.]

Let's get you home, okay? We can get you into bed, we can talk or do whatever you want, okay?

( teddy's arms have always felt safe, this isn't any different. he tilts his head in, and billy tilts his, too. nuzzles in close, takes a slow, shuddering breath. )

I'm--sorry, too. I know this isn't easy for you either and finding out like that wasn't great. I just--can't believe Loki, it's been almost a year, Teddy. And it. . honestly, it took me forever to trust him at first, after everything. Now I don't know if he was just lying the whole time or--

It's not your fault.

[He lets out a sigh and tightens his arms a bit before he starts to smooth his hand over Billy's back, trying to comfort in whatever ways he can.]

I don't think he was lying-- not about you at least.

He's the god of lies, Teddy. Who knows what he's been lying about. ( it's grumbled low, but. billy pulls back a little, shoves his face into teddy's shirt to smear off dried tears. )

Are we walking?

I don't think he'd have fought so hard for you, if he didn't care about you. I just-- can't believe he was sleeping around behind your back. [He's angry that Billy's hurt... and he's angry that he's hurt as well. He'd thought they'd all been trying to make this work. Cheating and lying about problems doesn't make anything work though...

He lets out a sigh, bringing up a hand to brush through Billy's hair.]

We can walk or I can fly you back.

You'd think that after everything we've gone through, dealing with this wouldn't be so. . hard. ( but it is. and it's less about what loki did and more--why he did it. the way he went about it. if there had been a little more honesty, billy wouldn't be even close to as upset as he is. this is what he gets though, isn't it? trusting the god of chaos, mischief, lies--and everything else.

a step back, and he's raising palms to shove against his eyes, taking a deep breath. )

Can we fly?

Yeah... I'm sorry, B. I wish I could make it better for you. [But he can't. He can't say he's surprised Loki lied either -- not when he's the god of them... he'd just hoped Billy wouldn't be hurt in the process.

He moves forward at the question to pick Billy up, hold him close as he shifts his form.]

Of course we can. Come on.

( arms wrapping tight around teddy's neck when he's picked up, billy presses in close, leans into teddy as best as he can. )

Next time the portal opens up--after we get Peter back--we'll go home, maybe. Get the Young Avengers back together, enjoy our apartment. . all that nice stuff.

[He turns his head to press a kiss to Billy's forehead, too uncertain to do much else, not sure how much of what Billy is saying is just because he's upset and grieving.

But it's all too fresh to prod at it, right? And he's too angry to be tactful when what he'd like to do is go punch Loki in the face -- preferably repeatedly.]

We will, B. But right now-- we've got an apartment with your brother to enjoy, right? And you know I'm with you until the end, right? No matter what happens.

I know. You're amazing, Teddy.

( his tone lacks the normal luster he talks about teddy with though; nerves frayed after the whole bit with loki himself. )

We'll figure it out.

[He honestly doesn't feel particularly amazing right now, but he flashes Billy a quick, fond smile before he takes to the air, keeping Billy close.

Right now, he wants to focus on getting them back home and safe, that's all.]

Of course we will... we always do.

I love you.

( softly, murmured into the curve of teddy's shoulder as he holds on tight. )

Thanks for sticking by me.

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